When things go wrong , i'll keep on smilin til i can .

new house

2009-05-06T16:01:00.002+08:00

i'll be here from now onwards :

http://cranberriescry.onsugar.com/

& fcuk you to all those copycats!

one brain

2009-04-28T15:06:00.000+08:00

2nd Week of school.
FYP FYP FYP.
Meeting Minutes.
Weekly Log.
Professional Profiling.
Wireless Comm.
Sales Management.
The Core.
Deadlines.
Love.
Family.
Money.
Happiness.
People.
Lonely.

= exhausted ; depressed.

The one who understand says "you're depressed, now run."

But all i wanted is him to slow down everything & hold me tight.
that's all.

short getaway

2009-04-11T11:45:00.006+08:00

Goodbye Spore, Hello Jakarta~!

In 3 to 4 hrs time, i'll be away from here. & only be back Spore next Wednesday! 5 days to this unknown places. 5.1 Millions rup to this 3 places. Jakarta the main City , Puncak 3 hrs Journey frm JKT & Bandung ; the 3rd largest City , abt 3 hrs journey too. & 4 different hotel to stay in.

The rest couldn't make it for the last mins, so it's gonna be me and my man. Surprisingly, we just bought our flight tickets yesterday. Fuggin' expensive balls! & i have not completed my packing yet.

Hopefully, this getaway works!

Jakarta city!

Puncak; Tea Plantations

Bandung City

Got to get ready, pack and off!!
:) Good day!

honeyoat

2009-04-04T22:37:00.002+08:00

It's been a month! i know. Sorry lee. Been very very busy with work and a little bit of party here and there. & for us , we forgot all about our anniversary. Well, happy 13 months together sweethub! :) i love you, you know that.

too many things to say, but honestly, im just too exhausted or maybe, just maybe my mind in a blank state right now.

Good news is, WE ARE GOING TO JAKARTA!!! 11/04 - 15/04
& i can't wait for my pay!

& & i love my baby so so much!
& & & im high on OT OT, $$$ coming in! i like!
& & & & i love my sweetheart Pearlyn & Besties at work
& & & & & i love lil parties & surprises!

so lazy to upload pictures.
ape lagi , all in facebook la~

Parade

2009-03-13T04:06:00.006+08:00

I rather get drunk (wait.. let me tell you the time now; 4:22am) and get all sleepy than staring at this screen and my four purple walls for hours. Okay, that, i don't mind. But to think of working at 9am later, in like 5 hrs but let count it as i need to wake up as early as 7am so i won't be late, so im left with 3hrs! like fcukkk! and i'll be out the whole day and night after work for some casual wasted session with lover and bff. & working the next day and the next next day. super woman!

Yes, Tampines Starbucks is officially open since last week. All new look, and i've been working since 3rd march and it feels like im working as a full timer. But sadly, next week, i'll be having 4 days off! Mon-Thurs!

Coffee presentation was well presented. Good job girlfriends! :) and have i told you that my babies actually gave birth to many many mini babies? THREE HAMMIES! WOOOHAHH! effing cute! shall update their family photos here! :))

So many things to say. But honestly, next week gonna be a party week!

and red wine suck my balls. & that bugger is not gonna pay me back after taking the whole bottle of wine. cb! your kueh doesn't cost much okay!

dysfunctional brain going on random.
so b a r e w i t h i t . . . .

sleep or not ? that's the question now.

Oh yes, im excited on having this mini getaway with lover n bffss to Jakarta! make this happen, okay? :))

what else, what else ...

oh ya, recent weird things happened, a bangla came with a cupboard as a place to sleep and start wanking. WTF, can? go and get a room la, plss! tampines is just so weird.

wait .. am i gonna do this till i fall asleep? fat hope.
Im going to end this now.

First & forever

2009-03-03T13:02:00.002+08:00

I would not trade, for I know I could never find another who completes me like you do.
Happy 1st Year Anniversary.

Unbelievable
(slap me on the face pls)

okay
i'll keep this short.
Got to run for work now.

I miss my baby!
Extreme misses!

impromptu

2009-02-27T19:25:00.004+08:00

What a night , what a night. Impromptu outing with the guys, last night. & i swear i hate d blo. too crowded. infested with mats & minahs! erkk . no offence aye! some nice hot guys there too. and i lost my ear rings, cause got this one guy just bang and walk away. how rude! haha . definitely not drunk, and i saw alot of friends there. be it primary school mate, secondary, rp and msn! infested rabak! and the club wasn't that good. well, went it for free anyway, ladies night! poor thing for the guys, $30 per entry with no drinks. -.-

but i miss my babylove! :)

after club @ unity st ..

adam

haq at the back

bf's friends!

that's all!

Next week, with the girls :)
oh wait; i LOVE MAC make-up!
anyone wanna buy me the whole set?

Junk

2009-02-26T15:55:00.012+08:00

So hey!

Yes, pretty long i must say! Been busy once a while and now, im slacking my ass off at home! DRAG! Cashless and waiting for the pay to come in. Life is good. Pretty good!

& it's a period where i hang out with friends here and there. And i love the impromptu meet up, especially with Razan. The sudden health care, where i did some jogging twice a week, cos' i think im getting sideways now, FAT! hmm , been good, been bad. Live life as it is.

Girls wanna have fun! & here i go, having fun as much as i can. & i got my first lil organizer book last month, cos' i think im going to be very busy in march & april and when school starts! & surprisingly , i passed my BFH course (Basic Food Hygiene) and will get the cert for life (that's what they say). & Our 1st year anniversary will be this coming Tuesday 3March! how nice .. but both of us have work to attend. So we will skip the celebration. Nevertheless, i love him deepdip!

Impromptu KL trip with the family this Friday is cancelled and im pretty2 sad! grr .. What else .. what else .. oh ya , some girls is getting on my nerves lately and it's killing me. (im human, this is what i should feel) HAH .

Okay, you know what? i shall keep this short.

Very much OVERDUE PICTURES in random! bye

Meet up with his old friend!

Wednesday (Ladies night) REBEL!

my girls!

my guys!

lynn & hakim

Nic & Fad

hakim & Jid

sober

titled of having single pass! hah

Darryl , i love this most! cute ey ?

drunk & high

Rebel

love peh dipdeep!

Durian Night

Pack up Store for Renovation!

Starbucks Outing ; BBQ PIT

Mummy's 44th Birthday!

Karaoke Session with his Friends

Simpang & Punggol Point(end) with bf's bestfriend

That's all! :)

Party @ Rebel

2009-02-12T16:26:00.002+08:00

Got to work 6pm till 1am later at Compass Point Starbucks. & im still in the hangover mode. sober shit. ah fcuk! Then now, i have to cook dinner for my family. Briyani. So leceh, can ? & i'll definitely be running late as ever.

Party was crazy!! Met up Pearlyn first. Her 'bf'(Glenn) and her bf's bestfriend(Darryl) later. Darryl was damn hot. Extremely orgasmic. Reached Rebel and get our ladies night chop. Fad & Nic came later that. then bf and Hakim. So we had some mini games and drink before we head in Rebel to club. & i was darn tipsy. It's a good thing though, cos' the feeling of drunk&high helps alot in clubbin'. HAH!

I had the whole jolly good time last night. Very nice! & trust me, you don't wanna know what happen inside! But the whole environment thingy was great! very hot & sexy!

3.30am, off for smoke and left the club. Then another 2nd round of drinking. k fcuk! A better ones next week, i assume? oh, 7am that's when i reached home and i haven't got any sleep yet! & bad news, DRAG TO WORK! $%^&*!

(pictures will be uploaded wee-night,later)
actually it's already in fcbook! so yea, todds!

we spell this bleed

2009-02-09T21:08:00.003+08:00

I can feel the swell in both hands now. Sweaty and shivers at this very moment. I convince myself many times , seconds ago, that i don't want to know what's next. No, i don't want to. And now i know it's real. This time i know how it feels like.

I'm holding myself baby and I admit defeated by all the emotions.

For once, i thought it's gonna be easy, but i was wrong.
Sorry, I lie to you,
to my & our heart.

"Hear me this, baby..

Hold, cos' I'm hurt.
Hold, hold me a little longer..."

But this is where i tell myself,
" he's not gonna hear you.
he's not gonna be there for you.
Because this is what you want. "

behind the mistakes that I've done.
i deserve this.

Don't stop, cos' baby,
You're doing the right thing.
A better ones are there for you.

more than this

2009-02-02T11:50:00.005+08:00

Saturday 31 January 08 ;

After 2 years, finally we had a proper meet up. Met up the girls first at Plaza Sing. & trust me, i miss them oh so much la. Then Farhan came over after that. Normal catch up but i promise next week, Monday we shall go to Hard Rock, okay ? for that Kumar show aye! haha, or Prolly, for you Pearlyn, we shall go Timbre or whatever you want, only after i get my pay! :DD

Okay! Honestly, nothing much to update. Been working my ass off everyday. Other than that, slack at home, stuff myself with junk food and do some online gaming, or do some read up on computer viruses, or do many many of google-ing! like shan always say "no lifer".

this no lifer, is going rich just staying at home, you noob! period.

Here goes the peek-tures! the rest will be at Fcbook!

he got longer hair than us!
lol

Love you all dipdeep! :D

Farhan

Teresa

& Pearlyn

me&bf head down to TongSeng for dinner, then usual chilin' place at ParkViewSq.
Camwhore! -.-

act cute bf! Bleargh!

Tomorrow gonna be our 11 months together! :)
oh wee!

off to work now! gd-day!

ECP Baby

2009-01-25T11:15:00.020+08:00

I always like to wonder "what's next", but preferable surprises. It's holiday for me. School will be reopening April 20. and i have 10 weeks by my own. Okay, not exactly. So yea, now im pretty much a slacker, and i need to work my ass out for money this holiday. Can anybody grant my wish ? big money pls?

I had wonderful-hot-erotic-day, yesterday, with my boy. Tanning together with cycling was the actual plan but we did just the tanning only. East Coast Park was crowded with the makz&pakz plus some hottie ang mohs, oh ya, the bang-gala too. -.- and, lovely home-made lunch by bf was fullfilling. thank you sweetheart. and it's summertime over there. Real hot! burn burn burn!

& i had to carry this classic camera, since brother is in KL, using mine, and dad using his, so it was Nikon coolpix 990. 3.34 megapixel! damn old school.

we did, stone skim, baywatchin, foreign language, sing-a-long bus rides, gay runway and plenty of endless amorousness. topnotch yo!

and i m falling deeper each day! :D
PS: it's not abt hving you on wkends, but having you in my heart.

now now, im missing him already!

oldschCam, Test shot .

2nd test shot.

lunch was superb baby!ty :)

i still think he's gay, in his own way.

Plenty of water & mp3 speaker. A MUST for tanning! hah!

burndead man!

ignore me, cut his head, his bod remind me of dugong! hah

cheekyman!

before ...

after ... a lil nice tan back now aye?

boyfriend, you're hot, ok? heehee.

& i got to start doing workout now!

bloody fats! hah!

okay, HAPPY CNY! I have to work eve tdy, till fcuken closing 3.30am. Prolly 4am.

bitchshit!

excuse me

2009-01-18T14:52:00.008+08:00

Definitely ecstatic! Had a great night yesterday. Wait, i had a wonderful night/dinner date with my *ehem* lecturer. Hah! i mean my babylove aye! I miss him diorLots okay! Lovve surprised me with a bouquet of a pink rose with few other flowers. Touched. Simply am touched. The one and only flowers i get in my whole entire life (other than V day, where shops gv free roses). bleargh!

So we dress up. Mature-formal kinda thing. & he, surprised me with his sweet manly inspired by his mum, with his purple smart shirt. *melts* ;) as for me, usual, black. All black. but this time with my 5 1/2 inches heels. & it's crazy when i wore it once in a blue moon.

First stop was Vivo City. Dinner at Earle's Swensen and a mini shopping. Dinner was great and even better with the company i had. Thank you Lovve! :)and then we trained down east side. Chillin' for awhile and off home.

Pretty enjoyed talking, holding hands, huggin' and whatever i miss doing it last year when i first met him. and it's coming back for good. Honeymoon pls! :) & im looking forward to our first anniversary. 1 month + 2 weeks to be exact. sweetniblets!

Good day! :)

cute aye? guardian teddy of pink rose! :P

lol now say awwww! :DD

:DDDDDD

my f&c is done! what's next?

act cuteee! smile properly can?

what?

orgasmic! my oh my!

more photos up in fcBook! (:

cola cola

2009-01-13T11:24:00.002+08:00

It get better day by day. Okay, not really. But i always hope it will be. And I can't wait for the long break. 6 school days left, and i'll be working my ass out for money. I have approx of 10 weeks of holiday. From 23 January to 20 April. OH YUM! and if only family get better, i'll be as free as a bird. o-well, i shall plan out a pure fun and catch up with some oldies and yes, i can't wait for march to come. or maybe i can't wait for what's next. so what's next again? i don't know. We shall see.

If money ain't any prob, i would fly to aussie by march with my gf. Sigh. In need of fcuken sugadodo. But wait, i'll earn it by the end of the year. cb. so long. okay, maybe i'll take it slow. and and and , i need to start organizing my own desktop. Clear all those unneccessary 25 viruses. another cb. bleargh!

Okay, actually, now, like right now, school time just suck my balls.

I miss Mr Aiman.
I miss Danial.
I miss my Sergeant boy!

okay, pure miss, i miss ahmad jihadi.
Still have plenty beautiful places to see together.

Maybe some romantic getaways in Singapore.
or maybe photography outing with him.

i wanna check out, Henderson Waves, Marina Barrage, Classic Mount Faber, P.Ubin, Kusu Island, Sleepy Sam's, top cliff of Sentosa Resort, Ferris wheel, dine in some hotel-restaurant, ulu-ulu lane at Holland V. Okay, anything that is nice and classic, old or new, doesn't matter.

okay, im really out of words.
i shall search for more interesting places.
or maybe find out why is the earth round?
and why A is A and not B.

bye..

asstic

2009-01-08T14:51:00.003+08:00

This is what i feel. & i trust that, it's greener on the other side. :)

Almost quitted RP for some reasons and was half way through the JPAE online application for diploma in Ngee Ann. and did some major send out emails to my diploma head before continuing JPAE. But yea, i stopped.

I can find 5 or more reasons to walk away but i can't find any. on why i should stay. (maybe at this moment, i can't). I didn't talk about this to my parent nor to my boyfriend because it came out of sudden urge. and i find it silly, on my own.

But rationally, boyfriend knocked some sense. thank you. and im gonna suck all the balls i can till i graduate in the year 2010, 360 days or more from now.

So now, i got to start planning my schedules and get an organiser for myself. Got to list down all the MUST DO for this year. Here is what i have to complete.

re-Proffesional Profilling
2 FYPs
2 retain modules
Speacialization modules (Wireless)
TP by end of Dec 09
Learning Coach/Coffee Master
Aussie Trip delay to Dec 09

Mentioned above are highly important. So this is what i want, and i have to go through it like a man now. HAHA!

For now, i shall skip all the possible days that i can, cause i know im gonna retain it anyway, and enjoy the upcoming 3 months holiday! 8 school days to long long holiday! :D :D :D

toddz! Now, find me at work!

i still love you

2009-01-03T00:00:00.003+08:00

Happy 10th Monthsary to Us!

to Ahmad Jihadi ;

All these while ...

There's nothing i could say to you

Nothing i could ever do to make you see

What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears i cried

Still you never said goodbye and now i know

How far you'd go

I know I let you down but it's not like that now

This time i'll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together

Cause' you keep me from falling apart

All my life, i'll be with you forever

To get you through the day and make everything okay
I thought that I had everything I didn't know what life could bring

But now i see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right

The only one i let inside

Now i can breathe cause' you're here with me

from Carina.

touched 08

2008-12-31T22:29:00.003+08:00

Same old thing for me. Home, every year of New year countdown. Many people prefer to celebrate it with their "huu & haa" but for me, i'll stick to my own plan. Cause, i find the "huu & haa" make the last few hours of our year 2008 pass very fast and i don't want that to happen. Why? I got my reason why.

1. i hate the crowd.
2. i prefer personal time
3. to reflect
4. and regret
5. but to move on
6. with life
7. and wake up
8. knowing that
9. every single day
10. is our very own last day of our lives.

this moment, this time (10:37pm) , say 1 1/2 hrs or less, i could feel nothing but sadness.

one , i just wish i could sit down with the one i love. Somewhere, very much less crowded, holding our hands tightly. Wanting to feel secure with his arms wrap around me, knowing that our mistakes are just a stepping stone of what's each other are like, holding on to the silence to let our heart feel and say, witness of the last minutes of year 2008, letting it by slowly, and when it strike midnight, we whisper to our ears, a sweet blessing that we might say, "everything's going to be fine and better than before".

... im lost of words.

but then again, i feel like putting myself to sleep and never want to know what's going on around. or better still , waking up and forgetting the people around me. or i'll just pretend i never knew anyone.

i shall put myself to sleep now. exactly 2300hr. 60 mins to 2009.
Well, Happy new year to all.

megan & friends

2008-12-27T12:15:00.014+08:00

As i promise but i know it was way later than i suppose to update. O well. i've upload 1/4 of the pictures event, so the rest , you can view it in my facebook account. :) trust me, it's a whole lot, later you people will get bored with the pictures. & i think i should change my blogskin cos it's no more that udumbdiedolls. hmmm . but then again, ENJOY & LIVE UR LIFE! :D

anyho, i've got to run now, for the flea market @ tanglin. ciao!

Starbucks Tampines Christmas Open House - 4 Dec 08

The Frappers!

The Frappers Part II

Fad.Me.Murni

The management Team.

Starbucks Tampines Partners :)

Timbre - Bar + Restaurant + Local Bands : 6 Dec 08

mine was pure virgin. -.-

the band was just beside us.

thick & bloody sweet.

strawberry margaritas.

can't be bother to edit. but yea, the band was hot!

Istana Park + Plaza Sing. Movie night (Twilight) - 13 Dec 08

night mode pictures are nice.

& i love him even more.

no, im not drunk.

it's like gay affair.

Movie night with TS SB partners (Yes Man) - 21 Dec 08

12 mid.

my bestfren.

i still think that im taller than mohsin.

Lepak again!

short fudgeee!

same night - Simpang Bedok + Bedok South Sec. memo lane.

crazy & high.

we played abc.

3:22am drunkardz!

fashion he made.

we are photographer ourselves.
candid & the best shot i must say.

if it's too obscene, just exit ur way okay?

motive : it's about photography not intimacy show off moment.

goodbye.

more pictures up in facebook. ty.

Note

2008-12-23T06:58:00.002+08:00

To All,

The tag is out. & im back for good, i guess? Partially doing fine & having a great break/holidays. Too many things to mention actually but i'll do some post up pictures to conclude the whole missing in action season. HAH!

From Timbre to Georegotown to Party to Movies to shopping to Runaway Home to many many lotsa new things. & more to come. I bet next week gonna be fun, though i think both of us is already running out of cash. o-well. the whole minute is no time to lose. SO, ENJOY PEOPLE!

Pictures will be up, tonight.
Stay tune.

Lotsa Love,
Carina

conversations

2008-12-02T14:27:00.004+08:00

From LG SHINE since Feb 08

to SAMSUNG FULL TOUCH!

Hurrhurr! Thanks Daddy-oo!! :D

Well, hello people. Im back, back for good. Honestly, been Busy lately. Busy settling all sort of problems. And spending most of my time with the one! (family and lover) Mum and dad gonna fly off to Mecca tomorrow noon. & definitely gonna miss them! Come back home safely okaay? & yes, gonna be all independent with the two kidos (lil bro + lil sis) and my twin. (plus on off maid & granny, i guess?) :)

Looking forward to all the events and neccessary parties. Gonna fly off to Penang on 16Dec-18Dec for school study trip (georgetown & nightlife) . & some short vacation with loverdear!

PAY PAY PAY! Come QUICK!

& as for Me and Sgt Ahmad Jihadi, we are going quite stable and well now, alhamdulilah~ :D but let's not put on hope this time. go go with the flow. & let's pray for the greatest clean revenge, shall we? calling for Ibrahim Chemad. BLUERGGH! sucha fucker.

9 Months BABY, 9 months in few hours time! Tomorrow is the day!

& last week ...

Dear's Graduation Parade! Congratz Sergeant!
Lol Sergeant seeeyy ...

PS: I HATE SCHOOL & Skipped againnn...

Right here

2008-11-19T16:09:00.002+08:00

You're right. He's back, last sunday. Everything was just nice and cosy. Snuggle up in bed accompanied by morning hugs and kisses, warm smile and peaceful love. i miss all that. & im happy for that. But i have to admit that, it wasn't easy to be or to have relationship. & if you see us, easy, we are not, cause we are going through the same thing like all couples are facing. oh so much of the arguements and seriousness all the time, till we left all the happiness and serenity behind us. If isn't what we feel for each other, we weren't be together till today. and i believe and im sure myself that i want him to be my future i've dream.

The true story; I betrayed all the trust, be disloyalty and say lies. It was a killer. A killer of everything that we hold on. & it was a triple mistake over and over again. I was sorry and i am sorry. To think that i can hide things and being selfish all the times just kill us both. I never think i was good for him. Never. But im greatful that he still stay and be there for me. So if you think, ~~guys are jerks, women are worst~~. (not all) err.. this is cruel.

& Baby, don't ever say you're not enough for me. Don't or just stop saying that. You are just what i need and i expect too much from you. You know, i always need you and everytime you weren't there for me, i feel all so depressed cause i have no one to turn to. And i always thought you pull it through easily and me, the hard way. I never thought we're facing the same thing and im all sorry for being selfish and not understanding at all.

But most of all, I hate the feeling of not telling and i hate the feeling of telling. Either way, im not good for both. Honestly i don't.

I need guidance. Define me the meaning of commitments, loyalty, love, trust & relationship. Guide me what's right and what's wrong. Be beside me to show me what's true relationship is and lead me to the future we dream of. I need all that. I need you.

I don't want this relationship to be the one they always label as "come and go puppy love". I want it real. Baby, i want it to be true and real. Tell me or show me how can we start from what we used to be. Tell me what's not. & if only i could be good in saying out my feelings to you, i would have done it on the very start of our relationship. Im sorry baby, im sorry.

All in all, i thank you for the patience and the great endurance.
I love you, Ahmad Jihadi.
I always do.

youohyou!

2008-11-14T16:18:00.002+08:00

72 hours and still counting for my oh-so-sleepless-nights.Honestly, not even a nap. & everything seem crazy. Too crazy to even think, and even so, im all exhausted. Mentally & physically. About 2 days left, and i feel so different lately. Crashing heart & all sort of mixed feelings. I swear, it was'nt just me.

Independently, i survived this far. & speaking of which, I got selected for a school study trip to Penang on December. Sign up as a loner, going as a loner too. Bleagh! How lucky can i get? WOOAH! so excited! -.-

Sore eyes getting better. Body terms, on and off the heat. Mind? Haywire like fcuk. & school, yet again, sucha bore thang to do. Smoking habit? on again. Weight? even skinnier than before. Compose song? Superbly half way. Hair? even shorter. Work? I got to go now~

toddz!

maxima

2008-11-12T23:37:00.003+08:00

i miss him,FULLSTOP!!

Being one of the norm this month, i got myself flu and sore eye and i think, almost everybody has it. Well, maybe the sore eye, i got it from my colleague? or simply my-oh-so-dirty contact lens. And i wasted my free willy wednesday at home; doing almost nothing but yea simply did some online shopping and for now, im stuck with one missing chord to make a perfect complete sad song. I hate it when i can't get the last missing piece of my song. BLEAHH! But major proud of myself that, i finally made a song by my own for my lovely boyfriend. CHEY~

& talking about my bf, he's gonna be back real soon baybeh! 4 days left. Im all excited! I swear i am, even now.& You don't know how it feels like to miss someone far far away. Like far far away! It's crazy! I think god knows how i feel. :D ... i love him to the maxima okay!

Maxima Maxima Maxima!

7 loh

2008-11-09T13:03:00.002+08:00

Wow , 7 more days to go! YEAH! Baby's gonna be back! lalala
Okay, the recent days has been very very occupied! like crazy! one after another.
Work work work and then aunt's marriage thingy then today, work again!

& im running late! Babies is well cared and yes HEALTHY back again.
Weeeee ... still, i can't wait to see my babylove soon!
like yea, soon in 7 days time!

LOL!
toddles! :D

step back

2008-11-06T14:26:00.002+08:00

Im partly depressed, annoyed and frustrated about almost everything. And my babies are sick too. I think they are 4 weeks old now and they grow big and active. LuffLuff is still skinny and Scruffy is fat but super active. dang!

& I swear I need my bf back. Come come home quick quick quick!

So i've been working 2 weeks straight and counting, so find me there and not school aye! Pay tonight! Pay tonight! Let's go Simpang/Sheesha okay Baristaass? :D

cliche; PS: I love you.

off to work.~

03112008 post

2008-11-04T01:55:00.002+08:00

03-11-2008

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to

come and pick me up

And every night I miss you

I can just look up

And know the stars are

Holding you.

i miss you, baby.

Happy 8th Monthsary to us.

no subject

2008-11-01T12:13:00.003+08:00

I've achieved alot and im proud of it. Saving money. Stop smoking <-- drastic action i must say and yea, staying at home almost all the holi-days i have. Well, i can't see any point why im bloggin today, but yea, im killing time before i hit to work later.

I miss my boyfriend and it's been 4-5 days that i haven't heard anything from him. GAH! Must be his field camp over there. & like i said i Fcukin' miss him,ok!. 2 days to our 8th Monthsary. Another achievement. hmm... & i'll shall cut my hair tomorrow! SNAP SNAP that damn long hair. We'll see.

hmm.. what else. oh ya, FTT this tuesday! shito! i almost forgot.

bye.

tension free

2008-10-30T14:31:00.006+08:00

Presenting My lovely SB-TS partners!

X-Mas Store Meeting @ Commonwealth.

Starbucks Tampines Familia!

Wandy & Me got the 100% Snapshot from Mystery Shopper.

Prize time!

Ellien, Matin, Me, Lilian & Hen

Kaki Lepak!

Mastrena Training

@ Commonwealth

Wandy & the Girlsss

Wandy, Iqah & Me

Me, Nadia & Ellien

Hands On, Trg time!

Cheeeseez!! :D

As much as i wanna talk about my PP, i don't. Cos it was a major dissappoinment for me this whole week. This time, i'll blame that muthafuckin advisor who simply took advantage all my time for not reading my emails. Thank you for wasting my effort; Prolly i'll do mine next year, like all over again! 09 ; to think about 2 FYPs + PP + Elective & so on. Fuck you mr dick lee look alike! fuck you, understand!

But on a lighter note; i save my holiday with SB partners, my second home! Bunch of people who crack and make me smile the whole summer.(not that it is summer) o-well. and i m just glad or say happy; for the existen of new friend found. Not that new, i must say. But yea.

Ibrahim Chemad , Happy 20th Birthday Old man! wahaha!

I shall continue my Sex & the City and other online movie marathon.

But wait, PS PS: I fcuking miss my BabyBoo HoneyBunnywho, soo damn much! i wonder what is he doing right now. Hmmm... come home soon!

goodbye

2008-10-29T14:39:00.003+08:00

I don't know why i feel so much anger inside me ...

Fcuk everyone, okay! Fcuk the PP advisor! Fcuk the PP assesment! Fcuk the hp! Fcuk the bills! Fcuk the friends! Fcuk everything, ok! fuck it! fuck my sch holiday!

FUCK YOU!!

My all

2008-10-28T02:27:00.002+08:00

You ; my sleepless solitude night.

I miss you, Danial.

2:35am

miss you miss you

2008-10-26T13:35:00.003+08:00

alot like love hor! :)

So me & my family send baby off to the airport for his 4am flight, but had to be there at 230am instead. & 8 hrs later, baby called. He's all safe and have alighted Taiwan. :) Only had 3.44 mins talk. Lol. I miss my sweethub, okay!

But yea since it's school holiday now (for a week), i'll be busy working and also PP-ing. Feel like giving up PP this year and re-do it a new one next year. I'll see about it if i had to rework again. Presentation gonna be like 31Oct 10.30am. Can i just skip PP'? Oh PLEASE! Yes, i have not done my PP Poster. WOI~~

But anyhooo, since Bf is away, now i have plenty free weekends/days and i wanna do some jogging, beach-ing, diet-ing and some other things like quitting smoking, do roller blading and car practicals, also PARTY escape. So i'll be a sexy healthy Gf when he come back Spore. ZLOL!

Okay, got to rush to work yo!

Toddles!

(i'll be bloggin more now)

Here with you

2008-10-22T15:42:00.009+08:00

Hello keen readers! :)

Apologise, cos it's Been hectic-ology this few weeks and i have even lesser free time to blog or upload anything. But im back now, temporary, only if i have any interesting stories. Cos' i haven't been touching much on my personal feelings of what i've been facing. O-well.

Amazingly, i survived, still. But let's not touch on what's been happening, shall we? & period, i spend my outmost-most time of my life with smelly belly my babylove. :D LAAAH!

Baby gonna fly off real soon, Sat night, i guess. & yes to serve his national service in Taiwan for a month. A month? It worries me at first and i swear i was too scared to even think about it but now, i think i can go through it well enough. Baby pampered me so much like i have never been pampered by any guy before. Serious! *with excitement* LAAAH!

& Trust me, he's the sweetest gift of all. :D First, his old diary, classic unwritten vintage diary (that i've been looking to have one,exactly the same as what he gave) that he said might help me and it did & does. Second, was the surprise show up at Commonwealth after his camp with 2GB Sony Mp3. Like wow! :D & third, Our babies! *aww*

Actually, it's more than that. :))

The days & every lil time we had/have for each other.

THANK YOU AHMAD JIHADI! Heeehee!

I love you...

Saturday was Raya with Bf and his friendsss. Like 25 of them (4-5 cars) Gerek? Very Gerek & happening! :D & we wore lime green together-gether! Happy banget!

In Hakim's car

this is Kadey

in white is Ibrahim (very kecoh)

most of them are guys, NS guys too!

i'll be driving the next raya, ok? :D

Well more over here --> http://mikahroon.multiply.com/photos/album/10/Jalan_Raya_18_October_2008

East Coast Park last Tuesday.
aka Photography outing

Nice angle baby! :)

The usher wanna be, i love!

The skinny heads!

the recent vain minah. lol.

Rolly polly olly, i love to bite his small ears!

Love for sun sea sky :)

Beautiful shot by baby.

it seem to be at Cafe Del Mar, not!

it was nothing sexy but the presence it was.

We witnessed Full Moon that evening. It was big over there.

Swensen Treat on Monday!

Salmon & Mushroom Cream pasta

Baby got his Cheezey something Pizza

Yesterday,

Morning breakfast & newsRead with Blove @ HPlaza. A Stranger talk, Ramesh, 30, some guy from France works for IBM, big money and own few houses over here and there, 4 wives. *like wow* -.- got cheated by one of his wife and get drunk in that morning. lol. Proceed to Esplanade Lib, rent 2 hrs room for dvd marathon. Teen love movie, Ada apa dgn Cinta, just sooth the mood. :) Lunch over @ Cik Marina (kfc). Karaoke and smoke at some circular wall. Fun time at Cik Marina (Arcade) for crazy kido games like daytona & cute cute ones. Then to Suntec (Pets Village) , Baby surprised me and bought me two, 1 week old hamster. :D plus the cage, bedding, food and bathing stuff! so cute okay! :) love love!

o-sing!

i love you laaa!

Our babies!

Scarffy & LuffLuff :))

Double the Yeay!

Cute right?

Trust me, it was hard to take thier pictures & this is the best i can get!

Say "AWWW " ... :)

i love you too!

Bathing time!

Scrub each other in bath tub! cute eh?

two cute lil butts!

Cute hor?

Toddles people! :)

SB TS rox!

2008-10-16T15:40:00.004+08:00

This is so so overdue pictures!

I love my baristazz partners!

Enjoyyy... :D

this is Ellien, My Shift manager! Best of MOD! :)

& there you go, Happy Family!

Starbucks Tampines go go go -.-! haha

rayerloves

2008-10-07T23:37:00.010+08:00

Over the festive & de weekend :)
What more can i say?
Family & sweethub

Though de Sunday was a short meet up/outing with baby, it was lovely & perfect.

Simple forgiveness, warm whisper of love,
hold me i'll hold you,
was just butterfly-ee :)

& i love him even more and more each day.
So i miss him yesterday, today & tomorrow & the next future;
or say everyday of my life.

& baby having his last outfield(jungle) this week before he fly off to Taiwan on the 24Oct.
For 3 wks - a month?

GOSH!

okay, todds! :)

& this, i love.

my aunt house! :)

lost expressions! hah

say hello to my kecohable cousin!

& small naughty cussy got stuck on my bed.

old.mid.young
my fav. cousins! :)

& we sing for joy! lol

the one i can share the most! :)

& my charming bro of cos! :D heehee

I don't wanna know what I know to be true

2008-10-03T19:34:00.004+08:00

Mark another month.
Happy 7th Months
to you & me.

I have nothing;
Nothing special just yet.
Only that;
I miss you i miss you I miss you.

& all the things i know;
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we would go
All the broken dreams, take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have our yesterday

I love you;
truly do.

Selamat Rayer Lorr

2008-10-02T12:29:00.007+08:00

Morning Glory! :D

i'll be the driver next year.

3rd generation (2nd batch)

incomplete; missing out one.

& yes SELAMAT HARI RAYA!
Maaf Zahir & Batin
As much as i want it more, it get lesser.
HAHA, $ atleast it can get me to Thailand!

still, i want many2 pictures from Straits Times! (:

1:13pm (2nd Oct 08)

First & foremost, Happy 18th Birthday to Razif. Yes, now you can book all your practical. Second, im still munching Kueh tart instead of Satay goreng (plain lazy to fried it?) , that's lead to third, where i skipped school again. Yes. (when was the last time i attend school?) and then suprisingly, im working again, today. sheeeshh, family gonna do visiting, get easy money and food food food, me? working my ass off for that lil some of $. & fourth, When can i get my pay again? & fifth, PPnoFunAtALL!

But the whole point is,
I MISS MY KINKYsexaay BF!

ok,Take Care! :)

feel me

2008-09-24T12:35:00.004+08:00

As much as i want it,
Everything doesn't seem to go how we want it
One after another.

I hold on "Everything's gonna be fine"
Just that for now.
Just that.

** & to you know who: thank you for yesterday's-all so long time bonding. When was our last? :) Super glad that we met and talked about all sort of shit,boys and past. We shall destroy the loner-lunch time to a happening ones, okay sweetheart?~promised! heehee. & you, better get all change! you know im always here for you! :D love you deepdip!

Im sorry

2008-09-17T21:45:00.002+08:00

I crashed the future we always wanted.
I'm sorry for everything that i cause'.

Even if it to make an alibi right, it is just hard.
In their eyes, I'm just nothing.
Worthless.
I'm at lose, if you leave.
& you will, one day.

Because of one(or plenty),
I know nothing could change.

To think of i have many behind me,
I don't cause nothing would be the same.

If only i could realized it earlier,
i wouldn't have done what I've done.

I rise my flag,
and wouldn't call it a mistake.
I rise to call it,
a foolish act like the rest of human being would do.

I'm no perfect for any ones love,
but i believe one/your love make me a perfect person.

I thank you for these much you've been through,
& apologized that it wasn't my intention.

Even If it takes 100years to believe me,
Even If it takes 10 tonnes of pain,
I would go through all of that,
just to be with you.

Majority would walk away,
But I choose to stay.

Don't have to wonder,
the only answer,
your heart.
my heart.

& Even if it kills me this much,
Knowing that,
The love will get lesser,
The trust will never get better,
The future,we will never be,
Nothing else matter anymore.

All i wanna do is to stay & love you.
Like i always do.
Like i always do.

- Carina.

Midnight Picnic

2008-09-11T09:57:00.007+08:00

Super duper overdue post. Well heck, kinda busy these days. Professional Profiling done. Professional Profiling Rework. Kedengdeng! sheesh! Sch.Work.Sch.Work.
& my all time favourite; Weekend with Boyfriend!

Saturday
o6.o9.o8
Lovey dovey, i still love you regardless of all the intense arguments.

Jom Makan! :)

nice background uh?:)

Act CUTE ah this guy! sheessh.

Sunday
o7.o9.o8
It was never easy, but im always happy having you in my life.
Always! :)

Focus on the food! His food especially! tsk!

Still love me?

mkn , mkn , mkn!

wish wish wish.

im happy, cos' we're happy!

mee goreng or potatoe chips?

this love!! :)

PS: unedited pictures. Love love my Powershot camera! heee :)

With faith

2008-09-08T12:30:00.002+08:00

What is the meaning of this?
illusions with returning confusions

030908

2008-09-03T23:28:00.002+08:00

Happy 6th Monthsary Baby.
The days that we have been through,
All the love and scarifies.
All the moments we had;
good and bad

As long as you got me and I got you
You know we've got a lot to go around
I’ll be your friend
Your other bestfriend
Another love to come and comfort you.
And I’ll keep reminding
If it’s the only thing I ever do
I will always love you
& I will always wait & stay for your return

I love you.

Love you endlessly.
Ahmad Jihadi

You're it!

2008-09-03T15:33:00.002+08:00

Requested by & being tagged!
Please endure.

Here goes,

1. What is your dream ambition?
* Simple, a whole lot of traveling with my Nikon & of cos my own set up studio.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
* Skipped this draggy Poly life & get my ass to Europe! ;)

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
* White wedding.

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?
* Rome. Peaceful, calming brick road. :) i like the wall! lol

5. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
* Partly Extrovert now.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
* Being loved by someone.

7. Do you trust easily?
* Trust easily = being naive/gullible. , so i say, No.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
* secretly, move away. duh.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
* myself.

10. What does your name mean?
* ~~( i second this later ) brb.~~

11. Is being tagged fun?
* not to that extend.

12. How do you see yourself?
* Insomnia tic but awesome! :D

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
* Family and lover.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
* nice ...

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
* single and rich. but maybe married but poor.

16. How many children do you want to have, if any?
* just 2 or 3.

17.What's better, to give or to receive?
* to give.

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
* i would love to pick both! lol, but then again, i'll drop - both, so i take none & find a new one. ;)

19. Would you give your all in a relationship?
* for now, i would start to give my all in this current relationship.

20. What are you waiting for right now?
* 1st Pay, school vacation & definitely end of period(men).

Tagged by: Dee
Tagged to: whoever.

Believe

2008-08-31T22:43:00.002+08:00

"... I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else ...
... I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself ...
... I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart ..."

PS: I love you

2008-08-26T15:25:00.002+08:00

Hello Hello!

Pretty much a delay aye & i know lee's been waiting for my post. My weekend post esp. teehee. Say, it was a normal long weekend. Extended weekend. Saturday, Sunday & Monday with love! & Yes, my saturday was kinda wasted, cos' baby only book out late late evening. As usual, he came over & slept over my place. Home cooked & dvd movie marathon. :D

SUNDAY

Last season for my religious class. Last seaon?lol. & yea after that, home stay where it's the best weather to be at home with your love love ones! With all the kisses and warm cuddles that he gave me. Super sweet and calming. I feel love & more love when we did our prayers together! :) Lovely. Still, can't wait for Ramadhan to come. & i think, it's gonna be my first ramadhan with someone i truly love(thats what i believe)! Can't wait for mosque trip with love, break fast with love & family! Oh, that good holy month! :)

Anyway, he was suppose to book in back 2100hr that sunday night but something came up & yea, i would always want to be there for him & help as much as i can give but it's just hopeless when i know nothing that i could help. As much as what he face & feel, i feel the same way too! (you know that, right baby?)

MONDAY

Came over to his house that morning, accompany him to the clinic & yea he surprised me with his breakfast cum lunch home cooked just right after i woke up from nap. How sweet! thanks baby!
:D

& by late noon, we're off to Boon lay, (book in : 1930hr). Before that, we had dinner at Jurong Pt. Banquet. & a lil did we know, it's time to part again! :(

But then again, it's going to be a fast week since he gonna book out 1 noon this FRIDAY! :)) Tomorrow gonna be Wednesday, Then Thursday gonna be fast, since im working til pre closing & then FRIDAY! Super excited, ok!

& did i mention im having my holiday now? I think next week, sch reopen, my 2nd year 2nd Sem! Professional Profiling is still like Rojak & i have yet to check my new classes! but still, im mind is already set for Graduation!! Lol! 2 more semesters to go!

Hmm A list im looking forward to:

1) Ramadhan
2) My first big pay
3) New classmates
4) Practical
5) ...
bla bla bla

Shopping?maybe i'll take 1/8 from my pay to do a lil shopping with Bf! :D

Happy happy! & Im off for my Cecelia Ahern - If You Could See Me Now. A MUST READ NOVEL! Toddles!

beautifool escape.

2008-08-17T23:37:00.007+08:00

Friday (Pasir Ris - Overnight)

Heeehee, Definitely had the best quality time with baby. Be it, he'd just snoring away and left me singing and entertaining my own self, that's fine. As long as i have you by my side, im cool! :) & so In the day, had our lunch and yea, sat there for hours, playing true or dare, just the two of us. Knowing the past fun factor was kinda gerek! the darkest secret especially. BLAH!

Saturday

Then head down to my homey. & one thing that just touches me till now was the short moment, where we had our prayers together. The feeling was simply loving & calm. The lead that he made just melt me. :) & that, i fall even more.

Mum & dad asked me to take the kids for a swim at Aunt's Condo. & i did, for sure. I mean, we did. Had a mini BBQ pit there. & yea, you all know that the aunt & uncle would react, when they see you with bf/gf right? That's right! all sort of qns here & there. Partly dad asked me to say that we're getting engaged this year. & that point of time, we were browsing this wedding magz & my aunt go like "wah, bile nak kahwin?" (when's the big day?). HAHA. -.- many of those typical qns. But okay, enough of that, had scrabble with aunt & baby. & I WON! surprisingly, i won! heehee.

After so much of that, we head home. Bby went home just after mum&dad came home. & that night wasn't the best ending. Had a lil tiff. :( & i don't like it. shessh! but hey, we're good now! :)

he look better now with his new spec! :) i like!

scrabble are just crazy but fun!

My aunt & her kids.

Isha & her bestest Cousin, Helmi.

Alish & his bestest brother, Adi.

Adi & his bestest temp. job, BBQ-ing!

TAAADAA!

& everybody bestest await, FOOD! :)

My Sunday?

Well, as usual, Religious class in the morning. & then slept the whole afternoon, till 5pm. Head down to bedok, apparently, bumped into Emma & bf. :) okay, so me & B train-ed down to Boon Lay. While we were talking, this lady, i think she's crazy uh, just shoo me away to move a lil at the side so that she can sit, where you know, im kinda petite and yes, i shared my ONE seat with this crazy cinonek! ergh! she's not old but she's typical kiasu crazy ah ma. B was laughing & everyone was looking. Irritating.

Nvrmd about that. Since he bookin in at 2230hr, we hang around at Jrng Pt. Had dinner and such. :) Lovely! & yes it's time to go. Sadly. Another weekend is over.

Next WEEKEND?
Emma's Sis Wedding! & so, TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I WEAR?

Our wkends.

2008-08-11T15:29:00.021+08:00

Thank you SweetHub for Everything!
:)

Friday 080808

Woke up late, because the previous night had a long late night shift and i ended up going home at 2am instead. By then i was pretty exhausted and i didnt attend for the last lesson that day.

So, i had my night shift from 6.30pm-2.3oam. But it ended at 3.30am instead. It was pretty tiring, super. If you're wondering, im working at Starbucks Tampines. & as a Baritas doing the closing is super duper likely never ending. I had my double shot Raspberry Dark Mocha Frap. & guess what? I have not close my eyes till the next day. So much of that espresso. & dear who had his earliest book out timing ever on Friday, came over to my workplace. Waited & waited till he fall asleep. Poor baby.

He send me home & yea. I reached say, about 6am on Saturday!

Saturday 090808

Snoozed the whole afternoon. No one at home.Skipped Family kenduri at Yishun, cause it was kinda far from home. & Baby came over at 6. Watched NDP at home for awhile. By 7.30pm, we went off to Plaza Singapura to catch a Movie(Mummy).

Had nice fun dinning at Secret Rescipes. :) Lovely aye! & then the Movie. The movie was kinda Ok uh. By then it was 12am, went Mohd Sultan Rd. to OBar to meet his bunkmates. & i swear i never like it. I went in for less than 5 mins, cause im kinda claustrophobic, & i almost fainted in the club. I never been to a club, & yes laugh at me, crowded places make me feel asthmatic. & i cabbed home a.s.a.p. What an experience!

Pictures time! :D

Our Dinner Dine!

Our side dish!
Caesar Salad! My Fav!

Sleepy eyes! i know.

Our Main dish!

Our Desert! :) Blueberry Cheesecake

Sunday 100808

Had religious class in the morn as usual. Baby called to come over his house since he can't walk much lately. Had lil bonding with his parent. Definitely, a lil nervous. Accompany him to Changi Hospital A&E. Had his check up for his both feet. Kinda like some infections or something due to his field camp. Foot Rot thingy. Sadly, he didn't get his MC.

So we rush back at his crib. Waited for him to pack and stuff. & headed to City Hall to meet my Cousin. Had lil dinner @ Mac. Just chilling & talking away about her upcoming marriage in 2009.

Baby went off alone after that, since he got to book in at 2100hr. Me & Cuz had window shopping for heels and then off to mustafa.

ok, pictures now.

B's first micro attempt. GAH! -.-

stoner.

Nice attempt for micro. :) Anyway, we're still in the A&E Changi Hosp. While people were dying to be cured, we were snapping crazyly-pictures.

i miss her! :)

i miss him!

Choco Brownie!
Gd Day!

PS: I love you.

High Love

2008-08-03T23:19:00.010+08:00

Happy 7th Birthday Darling! & Happy 10th Birthday to you Isha! :)

Saturday

As usual, bf & family day. Spend the whole day at home. Baby came over at 7pm. Had our dinner at Hougang Mall, since i don't really have the mood to go anywhere and cause it's crowded almost everywhere on Saturday. Walked and talked, serious talk. & all should you know, we had some tense moment, past few days. & i totally forgot about our monthsary. lol, anyway that's not the point. Bought siblings a birthday cake. Surprise them at home.

Family photo! credit to sweetlove! :)

So SUNDAY

O-yes , baby stayed over at my crib. :) chill-ed & did a few unrecord cover for a few songs. (Saturday night actually, before it became Sunday?) lol. Ok anyhoo, we had our morning smelly photos.

take a look!

RETARD! haha

Mentos as his = brushing his teeth.
Act cute uh?

Now, my turn to camwhore.

Our Morning faces!

& yes we havent shower.
*notice something lee?* he's wearing my Sec1 orientation tee!
tight fit nak mampos youu!

Sunday, 3.30pm to Bedok

Headed to his crib, packed his army stuff and such. & had a great laugh with his siblings, Sufi especially. Mind you, Sufi (sec2) & Aqilah (my age). & yes, it's time to go.

Dropped by Bugis to meet his Indonesia penpal, Krisha? Whatever her name is & she's kinda cute, had some small chat and then we're off to Boon Lay since he got to book in at 7pm.

& the sad part is to be apart yet and again. :(

i miss you...

Im happy , cause we're happy! :)

& Baby, Happy 5th Monthsary to us.
Like you always say, "hold on".
Im always here.
I'll wait for you dear.
:D

Sunday still, 730pm (Town)

Met up my family at town. First stop was a lil bite at Mac Cafe Lido. & lead to another family dinner, this time with Granny and my aunt. So had our dinner at Far East, Sakura Cruisine. After dinner, Aunt treat me for a lil shopping. How nice!! Thank you Cik Nab! :)

Pictures time!! :)

aunt.sis.bro

soy a soy a soy!

tom yam! :)

Slurp Yum Yum!

That's all folks! :) Toddles! I'll be back in a week! :)

Weekend delite

2008-07-27T01:57:00.006+08:00

Friday Night - SLC Dinner & Ignite :)

Had plenty of fun and laughter with the Circle of Grin. Definitely, uh huh! & It's really been awhile since the last time we had gathering and that was February? That's right. & very much i enjoyed their lil bits of stupid jokes & their presence.

Had the ceremony award, lead by the videos, & hell yea, Thailand Group photos were shown. Then dinner and last but not least appreciation and photo taking with our advisor, Mr Mike-key!

After that, we head down to the Ignite gig thingy. Superb!

Okay, Pictures time!

Ignite 1. (C.O.G mix)

Ignite 2. (C.O.G girls)

Us again. :)

All smile!!

Ah-roy! :) the one who interview the cows back in Thailand!!

For sure, am missing them!

the guys!

The Service Learning Award :)

Sqquuueeezeee!!

& Lastly, Our CERT! Congratz everyone! :)

Saturday - S.Cleaning & Dinner at Earle's Swensen (T3)

By then , i was almost suffocating (what a word) of missing de Bf!! Did my weekend chores while waiting for Bf. At noon, bf came over. & Guess what? Being sucha sweetheart, he cleaned my room for me! Okay, no, WE (me, him & siblings). & now my room is super sweet & sparkling clean! O-yeay!

& i don't know that Mummy and Him can actually gossip about me and my siblings! Lol. Anyhoos, after all that clean upt, i planned to go for the 2nd night of Ignite, but .. changed , since it's Mummy & Daddy 25th years of Anniversary, & mummy insisted us going for a dinner together. Why not, right?

Waited for daddy to end his work. Headed to Terminal 3 & dine at Earle's Swensen.
We had a handful of salads & desert, Ala carte dishes and pretty wide smile from everyone. Service there was good. Ambiance was great too!

After that, did mini mini shopping. Sight seeing. & Everything nice. Having Bf at the same time with Family is double the thumb up! :) I LIKE!!

Here goes the Pictures!!

B's Nap, after cleaning up my room! HAHA

My Manja Boys!

I know you want that, alish!

Mummy & Daddy!

25th Years! Sweet uh?

I think he's just scared to hug me infront my daddy! haha

BF & My Family!! WEEEE~

The Grin Gang

PS: I love you, Both of you! :))

With love,
Carina

Just for you.

2008-07-25T16:19:00.003+08:00

Please take note on your own individuals commitment.
Just Shut if you don't know.
Say only if you know.

Easy as that. (:

Overall baby!!

Things i so look forward for Friday & weekend:

Service Learning Appreciation Dinner later @ 1800hr.
C.O.G lil bonding
Bf book out
Family session
Work & PP

Very much love,
Goodday~ (:

wise words

2008-07-24T12:28:00.002+08:00

There's more than just black & white.
& If you think there's only two, there's actually three.

Im being irresponsible nowadays.
2nd period in a month yet and again.

School sucha drag.
2 weeks left, then a New Semester.

Weekdays are nothing.
Weekends are just too fast.

You friends are ass.
I boyfriend i miss.

I know blog doesn't make any sense.
Life are whatever it is.

Passion come, Passion go.
I heart photography.
Because of ~~money~~.not.
I heart Rugby.
But im ~~Lazy~~.not.

Money make me Happy.

I say what.
You read why.

Still don't get it?

nothing much

2008-07-18T14:57:00.003+08:00

I get weaker each day. Physically weak. & yes, had to skipped school today. Pretty lethargic and exhausted. Met up bf at boon lay yesterday, last min Night out for 2 hrs for him. Met up @830pm. Had dinner at Pizza Hut with his bunk mates and then, yea goodbye.

Sad thing, he got confinement this weekend. -.- so I'll be meeting him next Friday instead. Hopefully that is. What a bad news. Haha. OK whatever it is. Working at East Pt today. Tomorrow Pulau Ubin outing. Sunday religious class. Then back to Monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday & friday! Can next weekend come a lil faster?

xoxo,
Carina

Love you baby

2008-07-13T22:02:00.003+08:00

Working was the only reason that can make my weekdays a-pronto. & as always, I look forward for every weekend that i have. Especially Saturday :) and that was yesterday. Say, I'm pretty fly, every time i see him. Pretty pretty fly.

As usual, Saturday is all about family & bf. So bf came over, and yea, spend time with my mummy and siblings together. After that, me & bf left and went for a lil shopping at Vivo. Met his bunk mate with his gf. Wanted to catch a movie there but, kinda full house, so we chill-ed at Starbucks instead.
& Mr Bf is always careless, he almost lost his wallet but actually left it at Starbucks table there. Lucky him, the 3 ladies kept his wallet safely.

Headed home but yea, on the way, there's kinda a lil tension. & today, Sweetheart gave me a lil gift. Not lil but kinda big gift to me. Casio Watch 3036. Thanksss Baby! :)) The coolest watch, no kiddin'! Vibration alarm siot! haha, no beeping sound but it vibrate instead. Black with blue print and orange light. Cool or what? :)) Super duper i like and i will take care of that watch laarr.. :))

xoxo,
Carina

W' back.

2008-07-09T21:34:00.007+08:00

Razan.Dayah.Ryn

sexcited?suke?

focus nampak!

I can't find anything interesting to blog nowadays. Well anyway, had my eyebrows threading yesterday with Kai. & since it was my first time, i had my forehead near my brows swollen red. Ugly! but now everything is okay. I have neat brows now! :)) heehee. met up zan after that, went to dayah's crib. girls with their forever girls talk. :) you know im always here for you zan! :)

And today, me, zan and dayah went for a swim in the o-Wednesday-morn! :)) had lunch together and off to our separate ways. Well, i think we're back for good right girls! i so so miss you girls! shall do a lot of the impromptu outing! :)

you know you love me,
xoxo
Carina

TGIF

2008-07-04T12:06:00.003+08:00

Some overdue pictures from NTU touch rug last month!
Ta'moko Lions Babes!

I got to say that, i miss RUGGING! (rugby-ing) it's been a month now since my last training. Well, good to say that, my injured thighs are okay now and i can run again! Oh weeee! But maybe i put rugby aside for awhile now. Got other new commitments to settle before i can balance everything back to place. hurhur! Gonna start work next week! Well, actually today too but only for 2hrs. But yea, officially next week.

So it's gonna be a hectic week. After test got to rush to commonwealth. Yes, i know it's far. Any kind soul wanna send me to commonwealth? I need to be there by 530pm. and my test end at 4.45pm (woodland). HOW?

haha. Anyhoos, it's FRIDAY TODAY! Can't wait for tomorrow! Sexciteeed!
The secret that i can't tell.

you know you love me.
xoxo,
Carina

4th Month baby

2008-07-03T09:47:00.002+08:00

Jaydii-And-Carina - Hosted by Putfile.com

A gift from baby for my birthday! Sweet isn't it ?

Well ok, here goes.. We had a mini fight last night, the norms in relationship. That's okay. We are better each day, closer than ever, lover forever (insya allah). Go through all the hard times together and stronger each time we sit and talk about it. one word : blissful.

Happy 4th Monthsary Sweethub! :)

Nothing that i could ask for, but only you.

because you're half of me, my heart still beats.

xoxo,
Carina

Depth

2008-06-26T12:40:00.004+08:00

It feels million but when you're one, it's feel none.
& I need one who make me feel a million.

I don't need but i need it when time comes, something like now.

xoxo,

you know you love me.

sesekolah

2008-06-25T13:36:00.004+08:00

(click to enlarge)

I've completed my CE module (months ago actually)! :) So yesterday, had a talk on modules selection, and i asked my IT chairman that i would want to take an extra module (5 instead of 4) for next semester, so that i would have 3 modules to take next year & get my 2 days off but he said it's advisable to take 4 modules and focus on my Professional Profiling instead. Sad case but o-well off day still continues!

Next Semester modules :

C226 - Operating System Concepts

C306 - Data Structures and Algorithms

C202 - Systems Analysis and Design

C203 - Web Application Development

Ah yes, i know what you people are thinking. it's IT geek time! Just look at my modules! Boleh giler, can?

... & I have yet to start my PP draft (2000+ words, i think) and i need help. Anyone? Due early AUGUST! August for god'sake! Part part gini aku lost, can?

xoxo,
you know you love me.

Happy birthday to me and my twins

2008-06-23T23:35:00.003+08:00

First & foremost , i would like to thank to those who wished me & my bro today! & yes im nineteen, the last teen of the year yaw!

... and and I wanna thank w25m for the "19 slices of different kind of cakes" (i havent start eating it yet) & i wanna thank w64n for the big strawberry berries chocolate cake and 19 candles today! and my girlfriends who i had fun chatting with at starbucks smoking away about our lives. i had a whole lot of fun! :)

... and darling for being the most romantic and sweet person for the past months and today; and my parent for being the most understanding people and also being able to give me the best gift that is their sweet approval on my relationship as well as their non stop hit care and love!! :)) *double the smile* oh yeay!

and bitches out there who have been bitchin about me ; thanks for the attentions. you people are just plain jealous! i know cause I lead better life than you. Just bitch okay? heeeheee!

like i said ,
you know you love me.
xoxo

only we know

2008-06-22T23:16:00.002+08:00

don't let me bite u!

Friday was supposed to be midnight movie marathon with Mia noobie, but apparently, this mia noob fall asleep and locked me and dear outside her house. So we missed the last bus to hougang and from 1 am onwards we walked down till 2.30am to my house. Dear stayed over my house and good thing my parent don't mind about it. So anyway, that's not the point. Mia , i wanna bite ur butt la! -.- haha but since kite kan kwn and since you helped me alot, it's ok. next time do it more? ahaha

Saturday was a stay home movie marathon with him. Had quality time together and yea , that was kinda the last day before he book in back for his new posting as Sispec. So it was movie eat movie eat movie eat and bye bye.

i miss him and yea any plans tomorrow?
im free the whole week.
make me busy, please?

xoxo,
you know you love me

say

2008-06-20T13:42:00.002+08:00

Here are more words, alright ah kok qi? :)

Anyway, Im pretty happy with what i used to have and with what i am having now. But i think it's time for me to look deeper at the people i love. For once, let me be there for you. Friends and family. Im all yours people. You know you can depend on me, be it the worst time of your life. Im here. Whatever it takes, i'll make you happy. :) & you know you're stronger than you think you are. So take this tears away, brush that sorrow away and be what you are. Be selfish & be gay. So mia and ah kok, don't stop smiling! :D

& baby, thank so much for the advance gift! :) personally, i don't do this here but honestly, i have to say, i love it and i love you so so much. i love you for who you are now and not your past. i don't care how bad it can be, you are what you are, and seeing you make me believe that you are the future i wanna be with. this is a promise i made.

you know you love me
xoxo.

Summer love

2008-06-19T13:14:00.005+08:00

Yes i know! Im a week overdue. Haha plain lazy can?
ok, i had pretty lil fun here and there! Everywhere, mostly with love.
& So far, this holiday are all about the summer love and rugby.'
Had NTU touch attack last wk and got in Quarter Finale. hooray! not so bad yaw!
Everything' been lovely. Lovely lovely, flowers in the window.

ok blaaaaa ... can i let the pictures talk?

Mia & Me finally got this ntu T!! :D

Overnight summer @ Ecp.

Saucony Run with Manlee, new fren ok! :)

Ta'moko Lions :)

oh yes i stole his NS pic
Gay-hood!

Suke mkn nampak!

happy love!

do not ...

SNAP! ok you caught my unglam moment!

i know you know we know
*feeling2*

mia, see kungfu panda?

Abg2 berg. bibir slut! hahahaha

aku tgh mkn , ok? tetap sexay! hahaha

the sun, sea,sky +++

THE END

Suke view2,read2 blog org?

weekend

2008-06-08T19:24:00.002+08:00

Over the weekend

ta'moko rugby girls

Ahkok.Mia.Ferisha.Me

Saucony 100Plus Run Event @ Ecp

Marshall for section Bravo U-turn pt. (:

In between, quality time with bf.

Im pretty much exhausted. To fit in every plans from different commitment is madness! but well done, rugby to bf to sch to friends to family , i made up everything equally (atleast i made the effort) Gah! & Saucony events was kinda out of place but but i enjoyed my night and sunday morning with new people and happy runners! (:

Nevertheless, i still got to endure another busy week.
Im still trying my best to equalize everything.

& adding on, im gonna start another commitment,
WORK! it's time for me to get a job & yea, work my ass out for money!

& & im glad to say that i save $50 for this week.

(:
toddles!

HBD.

2008-06-07T00:25:00.005+08:00

Friday - Family day!

Daddy's birthday! (: Happy 50th Birthday Ayah! :))

Went Shopping with daddy, lil sis n lil bro.
Went Airport after that to send Aunt Az for her umrah.
Had dinner with Qustina, granny and my another aunt @ Popoye where they sell chicken but not spinach. lol. Picturesss now .. oh ya & surprise party with the rest at home! & granny give me money! haha. ok cool!

my lovely Qustina!

me & my lil sis.

my lil bro.

Warning! my photos are meant to mimic someone.
Here goes : pls endure! haha

especially this!

& this actually!

Gonna post daddy pic soon. Lazy to upload ok? haha

Saturday:
- 11am Meet up with the team.
- Watch the guy's match @ 1pm
- Contact Trg at SAS field @ 3pm
- Sentosa with the team?
- Home
- Then out again, for EastCoastPark Saucony 100plus run Helpers
(4am-12pm)

i miss my boyfriend ok! urg.

Sunday:
- Still ECP Saucony helpers til 12pm or so.
- Boyfriend book in @ 7pm :(

& again , i miss my bf!

Like okay whatever.

Nevermind me

2008-06-05T23:58:00.002+08:00

Im not a good writer nor do i love to write.
But seriously , i don't know why i own a blog.

O-well, this week, mostly a homestay for me, since i know that next week im gonna be very very busy, busy myself with outside activities. BTT coming up. Workshop. and more of those BBQ pit one after another. I don't know babe. Im running out of cash and i have yet to get myself a job. Maybe soon uh. I don't wanna work but i want the money, can? haha.

Im trying to save. Really save using my mini-tak-seberape pocket money. Money so leceh.
Anyhoos, Im missing my boyfriend.
Can weekend come quick? (:

03 is 3rd

2008-06-03T14:52:00.002+08:00

Though you are not here, but i know you are always in here, my heart.
Happy 3rd Monthsary love. (:

Relationship :
The more I learn the more I love

& i know how it feels, it still butterflies.
it's more than anything,you ever know.

i love you more each day,
i love you A.Jihadi.

Suga Rush Escape

2008-06-02T12:55:00.003+08:00

Friday 30 May 08

Bowling @ DwntwnEast

Pool

Friday Night Bf book out!

Saturday 31 May 08 , Cousin's Engagement

Sunday Morning 1 June 08 @ vivo

Sunday Noon , all time with bf!

Since it's not kinda rugby training yesterday, just an outing, and bf is running late if let say we did go Siloso beach, so change of plan,we went back to his house!

Mind you, he got to book in at 5.40pm. By the time we reach his place, it was like 1.30pm. Watch a mini movie, ayat-ayat cinta with his siblings as well, while ironing his uniforms and packing and folding his underwears! haha. & i was pretty nervous when his mum came home. NERVOUS highlow giler! but everything was fine.

by 520pm, we were out. As usual, send him off at Pasir Ris interchange. Then met up Razif. Chill-ed till 10pm.

Can anyone help me?
How am i gonna get away to Genting with bf on 20-22June?
- Problem = Parents!

Welcome Holiday!

2008-05-30T17:18:00.004+08:00

HELLO 2 Wks HOLIDAY!

My holiday schedule :

31 May 08 - Cousin's Engagement & Advance Dad's day celebrations
1 June 08 - (11am) Beach Touch Training
2 June 08 - Cycling date with Ms Pehlyn & Farah Kok's birthday*
3 June 08 - **(10am) AVI workshop (7pm) Contact Training

4 June 08 - Mia's Birthday* EMPTY
5 June 08 - EMPTY

6 June 08 - ex-w15k Gathering party at Roy's place/ Daddy's birthday!
7 June 08 - Rugby training & Bf's day
8 June 08 - (4am) Saucony 100PLUS Passion Run 2008

9 June 08 - EMPTY

10 June 08 - (9am-1pm) APNIC Workshop , (1.15pm) BTT ssdc , (7pm) Rugby
11 June 08 - BF's POP & Mia' BBQ
12 June 08 - BBQ
13 June 08 - Home
14 June 08 - Bf's day
15 June 08 - Religious Class

Goodday & See you people Around! (:
Happy holiday!

Go clinic!

2008-05-29T23:57:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile since i last blog?
Well okay, i just got nothing to blog about or maybe, maybe im just plain lazy.

Anyway,Contact training last Sunday and Tuesday was great! Coach have given our positions and guess what ? i'll be the IN-runner! Oh-great! more of the running here and there. M1,M2,M3! and i got all the bruises on my face and it look pinkish ugly! Nvm about that, i still feel good, darn good!

& this SUNDAY (010608) BEACH TOUCH TRAINING with BEE-KEY-KNEES, ok girls?!!
hahaha!

mia tube maut with pei tong suare maut!
cool noobies! i like!

& HOLIDAY IS COMING!!
31 May 08 - 16 June 08!
2 wks pun 2 wks laaaa..

FF

2008-05-24T01:08:00.004+08:00

I seriously got nothing to blog, yet! But okay, here goes ...
Movie treat every week. Skipped sch once awhile..
Lepak and moreee lepak.
Simple life.
i love my bf!

i love my bestfren!

i love my gf!

Pictures say it all...

feeling2!!

Look at razif TWEETY bird!
act cute only!

Mia the twino! haha Noob & nerd!

the friends & forever friends

lost expressions

mia.khai.azip

chut-chut!

Saturday Plan :
Rugby training 4pm-7pm @ West Coast
Meet up dearly NS bf
& have a great simple happy day.

i love you, ahmad jihadi.

only you.

13may

2008-05-14T01:57:00.006+08:00

13 May 2008

Nothing beat a skip-ah-school Tuesday!!

I call it Happy Green Friendship day (:

i love Razif! (:

act reading only!
i love BGF!! i love green too!

Met up darn early so that, yea, our parent would think we attended classes (but we' didnt). Got ourselves munching Mac breakfast and then headed to Bugis,yes mind you, at 9am to the National Library. I promised myself to study and practice my Java and so i did. Read up this and that, and a lil bit of some irrelevant books. I think , our reading session ended late noon.

We head down to city hall - raffles city SC to collect my Pay slip and catch up with my dearly Mr Jerry(supervisor). Had a lil window shopping and stuff like that. Went Pan Pac Hotel to collect Razif's pay and then we got ourselves sitting in the theater watching "WHI-Vegas". Again daytona. & lepaking again til 130am.

Anyway, Monday was great. Did i tell ya that we(me tot azip) played 6 round of Daytona? A few set of pool game and lepaking at Mac cafe till 12 mid am ? HAHA , it's cool! i likeeee~

xoxo,
Carina

10may

2008-05-11T01:11:00.002+08:00

10 May 2008

Advance Mum's Celebration at Rio Vista

It's disappointing. Cousins didn't turn up. Bf didn't turn up. & i ended up eating and eating and playing with the nieces and stuff like that. Kids and all the small kidos. Shit and all the shitooss.

I should have gone to West Coast instead and enjoy my rugby training with the guys.

Whatever, cos it hurt like bitch.
Bye, i don't feel like seeing you.
& i should just throw away the gift ok ok ok ok?

eggcited.

2008-05-10T13:25:00.002+08:00

10 May 2008

1:25pm

3 hours to go ...

Ohhh weee ..

ohhh waaaa ..

i think im nervous.

i am! heehee ((:

xoxo,

carina

7may

2008-05-07T22:43:00.002+08:00

7 May 2008

10:57pm

Im just all excited for this weekend. It's Mother's day, yes. It's boyfriend's day, yes. It's rugby's day, yes. For that one day(saturday)! I got to squeeze everything in. & so i decided to spend time with my love ones. Mother + Boyfriend 's day. heehee. (: aku excited sungguh, tak bedek!

Yesterday training wasn't that bad with the Tamoko lions. All the guys there are super hot stuff. sizzling hot. heehee. But i must say the field suck. Journey wasn't that bad though it was at bukit batok somewhere NUS. So it was the ex-rp-ruggers with the JJC girls. We did the norm plus a few fun touch and touch games. & did i mention that the guys are the hot stuff? lol .

Anyhoo, tomorrow gonna be a shopping day.(after sch,after UT)

Gonna get :

1) Mum's present
2) Bf's present
3) a black top
4) havainas slip
5) canterbury bag & short
6) $250 for the fckin damaged car!

& im not even working.
saving running low low low.

xoxo,
Carina

MB

2008-05-05T22:06:00.002+08:00

5 May 2008

Girls wanna to have fun!

We are the sexy IT nerds! We really are! :) teehee!

Jo.Kai.Khai

& this would be my beautiful Indian version of MonaLisa.

Monday blues & this is what happen ...

First i or we - mia & tot got screen-d by this Mr-Rude-NEA guys. (it didn't went well) Because they thought i m underage,ok no, we underage. & just because we actually blew thier NEA undercover job, they actually gt themselve pissed and pissed us off. Go get a better life,ok guys?

Secondly ...

Im having my worst trauma period. My first accident with 'an dad's car on this fcukin curb. & it cost me a whole lot of guilty-ness-ism! ok, maybe it cost me a living! & shit the bumper came off. & i think i wanna quit driving! shitholes! ok, no, this is life. Life have to like go on, no matter what!

HAHAHAHAHAHA trauma trauma HAHAHAHAHA.

I need the field! i need the field!

fug-000h!

mywkeend

2008-05-04T22:14:00.003+08:00

4 May 2008

10:53pm

I must say, this weekend was splendid. Things are better off plan-less, the truth? It was one of the best baby.

0205

Anyhoo, Friday as i said, i came to school as early as usual. 8am but didnt attend the friday class, in fact i was somewhere around in school doing the PP rework, yes , rework thingy and just slacking my ass off.

Met my lovely yr 1 sem 1 classy, after school. It's been ages isn't it? Yes, Ms Pearlyn! & yet again it touches my heart , how we used to spend time tghr after school and such. I miss you & you know we can hang out as often as we can and trust me, we shall break the loner-suck-period. HAH. Ang Mo Kio was the place we hang out since i gt to grab a new pair of spec there. and from Ang mo kio to Sengkang and Sengkang to Tampines and Tampines to Tanah Merah just to visit Mr BF. tell me bout it.

That's where he stay So yea, we talk and talk till 230am. Headed home with a cab. Well that was Friday Night. 0205.

0305

Met up in the evening @ downtown, caught that IronMan. (Thumbs up for that!) & yea , it was our 2 monthsary. We went scrolling in the Costa Sand Chalet just to try our luck, bumping into anyone that we know. So actually we did, I bumped into Serena. HAH. & headed back to my place. Faking orgasm and such, you wouldnt wanna know that. & it hit 3am.

& i don't miss him now.

Let's wait for another weekend, shall we?

xoxo,

Carina

rughereicome

2008-04-28T22:24:00.003+08:00

28 April 2008

It's been so long since i last touch that rug-ball. & Yes, suprisingly, Im gonna have my first training tomorrow at Novena, with my biatches! Not in rp rugby of cos, but a club girls-touch or might be having our real rug with the guys! ahaha. Way eggcited!

Well, see, Im trying so hard to keep myself busy, Since working is so out of the list right now, imma carefree person, very. Im ready for any last minutes kinda plan, & though i know I have much important things to do like my PP scope, & to be completed a.s.a.p (before 7may) still it's A - LAY-ZEE ,period!

Things like Lepak-ing, mini games like truth or dare and talking cock has been the in-thang for me and my kwn kwn(friends i mean) Hah! & it's fun especially when comes to the dare part. (don't ask, cos it's hella kinda dare).

Anyhoos, Thursday is de Public holiday. & since you all know that im having 4 days per wk time table, i'll be only attending school Monday & tuesday. & Friday would be my self proclaim holiday? HEEEH :D so i'll be all free from Wednesday-Sunday! weeeee... what a week!

& I can't wait for sweethub to come back. 3 / 4 days to go~ urg.

i'll update soon.

TOODDDDLESS! :)

ggylove

2008-04-27T00:22:00.002+08:00

26 April 2008

Happy 20th Birthday sweethub!

(though i know,you're in camp & doesn't really read this blog of mine)

Yes, Like i told ya'all, i can't meet him this week. So i bet he's diggin his own holes(in tekong) as a birthday present or something. HAH! ok, since it's his birthday today... i shall write about a lil juice for this man i know.

1)Basics

His age:

- a year older than me

How many months are you apart:

- a year plus 2 mnths (14 months?)

How long have you been together:

- known him abt 5 months, going to be 2 months soon...

How Long did you know each otherbefore you gottogether?

- well, 5-2 = 3 months.

What physical features attracted youto him first?:

- Soft smile at the bar. (:

Eye color:

- Dark brown

Hair color:

- black botak headed.

Hair style:

- mr botak style.

Normal Outfit:

- that fit tees with fit pants with his off-white sneakers. as usual

How did you meet:

- Pan Pacific Hotel - Brunch Bar.

2)RELATIONSHIP STUFF

How serious is it:

- too serious too soon. (:

Do your parents like him:

- I guess... well okay, they do.

Do you trust him:

- Yes, i do. Simple as that!

Would you share a toothbrush with him:

- Why not, but im particular about hygiene ;P maybe not? lol

Does he let you wear his pants:

- Haven't try that yet, only his oversize sweater!

Do you have a shirt of his that yousleep with?

- No, but i wish to have one of his :D

Do you like the way he smells:

- His after shave & his after training, its A-goody!

Can you picture having kids with him:

- Yes, lovely isn't it? *lol i haven't thought abt it*

What bothers you the most about him:

- "are you thinking abt me?" stuff.

Does he have a temper:

-whole lot of it. that temper have to go, but i shall stick with it if it's still okay with me.

Are you happy to be with him:

- 101% happiness.

Do you think you could do better:

- i'll try.. i'll try

Does he embarrass you in public:

- Not that i can think off?

Does he smoke or do drugs?:

- he's a light smoker, drug is a NO.

Does he drink?:

- used to.

3)SOME OTHER STUFF

Does he have any piercings?:

- No.
Does he have any scars that you knowof?:

- Not that i notice .

Is he a Party dude or Stay at home?:

- used to be that famous out going party dude, but he's committed now,a more of that stay-at-home-&-i-just-want-to-be-with-you kinda thing.

Is he Outgoing or Shy?:

- Overly-outgoing. ;)

Does he love his mama?:

- yes, his one & only 1st in line gf.

Would he hang out with you and YOURfriends?:

- Yes, randomly, he don't mind at all.

4)DOES HE Sing?:

- ALL THE TIME, tell me about it!

Call Other Girls?:

- Yes, a few.

Wear boxers/briefs?

- Most would be his kinky briefs! HAHA!(what a bonus qns)

THAT'S ALL for now~

todds!

twists & turns of fate

2008-04-25T14:38:00.003+08:00

25 April 08'

14:49

Every time you hold me;

Hold me like this is the last time.

twists & turns of fate

family

2008-04-24T19:24:00.003+08:00

My family~

08. alish baby!

in 90's

alisha baby! past~
now, present 07'

i love them okay? & of cos my twins! :)

& i miss my bf & i love him.

ourlove

2008-04-17T22:04:00.005+08:00

17 April 2008

22:10

Again, a challenge.

about 3 weeks again.

You don't know how i feel.

Not even saying would be enough.

I love you too much.

Sometimes, i just hope you would be here with me.

I miss you love i miss you ;

& i'll always be right here waiting for you ;

your return.

xoxo,

carina

sigh

2008-04-15T23:31:00.002+08:00

... It's not always rainbows & butterflies ;

I hope everything's gonna be alright ...

2008-04-13T22:29:00.002+08:00

It's always been him on weekend :)

& always been them on weekdays! =)

As usual, im always excited and always been looking forward for weekend to come. That's when i'll start to feel all nervous and butter-free-flies in the tummy! I still do aye! It seem like the first date everytime i meet him. & it's been the fourth meeting and thrice a month meet up for now. Yes, i did my counting. (for no reason actually)

Anyhoo, i enjoyed my weekend with you-know-who. None other than him. Since im finally jobless. Like really finally resigned figo. Like FINALLY. So im kinda free every week for now. Yes, it's been lovely. Though the meet up was kinda jiffy, i dont care i dont care, i still had fun lovely romantic moment. The movie. The shopping. The walking & talking. The everything!! :) im blessed. really. definitely, maybe! heee.

im just happy, okay bitch? hahaaa. oops!

toodd~

slow down

2008-04-09T14:49:00.002+08:00

Why do I love you?

I think and I know the list could run on for miles.

The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,

so many little things that make me love you so much.

The way you support me, and help with my emotions,

the way that you care and show such devotion.

The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,

and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.

The way your eyes shine when you look at me,

lost with you forever is were I want to be.

The way that I feel when you're by my side,

a sense of completion and overflowing pride.

The dreams that I dream,

that all involve you,

the possibilities I see and the things we can do.

How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul,

you are the most important part.

I could go on for days,

telling of what I feel,

but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

my thoughts

2008-04-06T16:45:00.003+08:00

Life have been perfectly wonderful, not to forget saying alhamdulilah and thanks for Allah for everything that HE has given me all these while.

Im totally blessed with family that totally understand what i am facing right now, though i hate the part where they have to go all bonkers & create unneccesary noises in the middy-night.

Anyhoo, im touched and blessed with the people around me. Thank God for the jobs i've been handling, the new environment and experiences. Im just simply touched to get to know, Nurul & Yen (my colleague in spf) as well as Bernice and a few others. Im gonna miss them alot. Especially our motherly-Pau. -.- haha.

Other than that, Im blessed with friends around me, Mia & Farah. To have this bitches around is fcking cool i tell ya! ;) The world goes around with bubbly rainbow kinda thing.

Im just blessed. Especially last night.

Went out for a date with Mia, pampered ourselves at Pan Pacific Hotel Restaurant - Brunch for dinner. From 7pm-11pm. I had a nice warm dinner with her. Nice liquor *well i don't drink*, nice pink health juice, pizza, small crabs and smoke a lil more. Cool or what? I just love loves the feeling there. ala ala rich konon. lol. Vanessa, Mia's manager is the hot stuff. Hot butch who treat us drinks and dinner. You can imagine how wonderful & perfect that night was.

Then Mr sweetheart came over around 9 plus. Not to mention his two other friends as well as Aidil came over after work. Drink & smoke. By 11 we were off. Spend quality time with love near my crib's area. More of the talking. I miss him okay. It's a once in a week kinda thing.so yea. & then it hit 3am, & i have to be home by 2am actually. Oh well, like they always say "time flies fast when you're with your love ones". true?

& the truth is, I haven't got enough yet, un-enough of that silence and staring deep. Un-enough of just having you by my side. Un-enough of everything from you.

& just Sometimes, i wish we have something to argue about. Something we can be misunderstood with each other. Something we can feel hurt for a moment and realize you are the one i love, but for now, it seem perfectly perfect. No problems, just that you're away & im busy & we meet for like once a week or twice a month. Lesser contact but as far as i know, I will always appreciate the times we had even if it is just for a moment or two.

& I still don't believe that i can actually endure this far, like this FAAAAR. People have been saying and trying to break us down, indirectly. Well, i don't mind. The only thing that matter me most, is just you & me. :))

& Im going for a long term relationship. No no, im looking forward for a long term relationship. & Who says it was easy? It was and never will be easy ya know! We have not reach the honeymoon period yet or maybe not cause we are still under-the-'probation' period. If you all know what i mean. GAH-NS! & im not really that smiley to go for LTR, cause it's really a need for hard work. lol, if you know what i mean.

Well again, I can't wait for the fight and small lil argue, i can't wait to see his true colors. The tempermental guy. i can't wait the time we need our own spaces and go for a minor seperate ways. Suprisingly, i just can't wait for all of this things to happen. & if it does happen and we are still holding each other hands and come back saying "you're the only one for me" i guess this is what they call real love. :)

I've never been this serious but i've said enough.Goodbye!

tmtble

2008-04-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

I've check my class and my modules for Year 2 - Sem 1. & yes, Off day every wednesday. But as for Mia Mangoo noob, her off day is on tues. -.- Kentz kape? haha I think my fav module would be every Friday, wed multimedia and partly or maybe every Monday, Object oriented Prog. Well, see how it goes. & let me tell you, I HAVE FCKIN NERD I.T-FREAK, AS IN 100% fck NERD! oh well, like they always say "this is life". -.- & this time i got to wake up 6 or maybe earlier just to be on time/early to class as my block is the furthest and the last building in the campus. w6 is fckin far okay?

Bye

ilnate

2008-03-30T22:54:00.003+08:00

SPLENDID! Today was just perfect. I got away from work just to be with my man. & it's a rare chances to spend time with him. Like RARE okay? So, we met up at noon to town. Nice warm lunch, walking under the rain, teasing and joking and just more of talking and more of that love. Headed down to bedok and helped sweetheart with his army shopping. Had junk dinner after that. headed to his crib and send him off after that, for his book-in at Pasir Ris(back to tekong). Ya'all should know.

Indeed, Just look at my man! hot stuff! haha, love you Nate arciBALD! lol

PS: MIA, ur chuck bass knws about u fanta-ing him! OOPS!

He will always be my jinky kinky haji! :)

lovesnate

2008-03-29T13:01:00.003+08:00

When you start to say ; it's hard baby ...

You got my heart all weak ...

Side by side baby,

Hold on tight ...

Trust me, Everything's gonna be alright .

i love you, Nate!

off day

2008-03-28T02:33:00.004+08:00

It's 2:52am.

Spend my off-ing day with my lovely gf. Yea, she is in my room right now. Sleeping with her small pink pillow. -.- (shall throw that pinkey away!) haha. & So we went PS. Had Gelare waffles before the movie start. Watched Horton. Smoke-d. Train-ed back to Hougang & as usual got ourselves Cup Noodles. Chill chill apple before we head back to my homey.

Oh did i mention that we did some small shopping? haha.
okay , yea not important! well, pictures say it all!
gd day . :)

meaningless 20!

our pale faces! where's our waffles?
I can see you starving , baby!

here comes our ... Our large cookies & cream waffles with choco sauce & whippy!

& i wasn't really ready for a snap aye!

so she's nt ready! my shoes!

no no, what are you tryin to do? get back here!

imma sexy back, only nate loves me! haha

daffy! & you suck!

bitch's eye look awfully scary! haha like mia always say "sial"

& so my bitch is kinda snoring right now!

don't let me fug you! hahaha

oops sorry for the harshy words! things get over handy after 3am ya know!

BYE!! =DD

psimy

2008-03-23T04:49:00.004+08:00

credit pic ; myself

It's 5.10am.
Still haven't got my sleep yet.
& again, i don't know why.

Maybe because i miss you.

Maybe because you were away & still be away.

Maybe because a day together with you kinda moment still strong in mind.

Maybe because the time we spend weren't enough.

Maybe because im worried that i didn't give my all to you.

Maybe because those three words, i said too much, weren't enough.

Or just maybe , i think too much at this point of time.

2 weeks plus endurance was never easy. & to love a man who is away for months takes up a big challenge on me. i'll never say 'i regret' cause i know it will be worth while the wait. & i will never worries about loyalty but rather the endurance. oh please make me strong.

ps: i miss you ...

tellme

2008-03-22T04:28:00.004+08:00

.. tell me to breathe easy for a while ..

4:52am

spfyo

2008-03-20T16:07:00.003+08:00

Last week pictures with my workmates! Njoy! =)

We are the Springfield-ers! :)

Rizuan.Bernice.Khai.Nurul

me & my bitch , the berry! :))

Mr 'Soft' Shorty! lol

take one!

take two!

take three! :D

Ok Gdbye!

PS: Today is the day.
Like finally, In few hrs time.
I'll be all yours & you'll be all mine.

321

2008-03-17T08:23:00.002+08:00

Oh Honey! It's Oh-3!!

imissyou.

2008-03-15T02:26:00.003+08:00

I love it when you call.

& I miss you, you know that.

:))

3:08am

yestrdy

2008-03-13T22:16:00.005+08:00

Fetch Farah from work. Went Borders, read some and bought some. Got myself a book by Cecelia Ahern - ' If you could see me now '. A lovely story, i must say. Dinner at FarEast. Pool at Lucky Plaza. Chillin' at Roof till 11. & that's about it. :)

couple of the month! :) lovess!

the one who lend me his car

the one who always make me laugh & smile

the guardian angel still

underage. haha ;)

farah koky kok! i love you!

I'll wait & still loving you ...

happygoby

2008-03-11T15:01:00.002+08:00

Farah got herself a 2nd job in my workplace.
& i feel so much love & bitchy everytime im with her.
HAH.

So after work yesterday, we went ct hall to buy her shoes.
& waited for that Mr Ariffin for an hr.
3 of us, ended up at simpang bedok for dinner.
& went for some mini driving at changi.

& yes, i did my first driving. WOOWEee
So now im kinda addicted to drive his car.
Semi-auto. lalala..

& farah did her driving too.
Her breaking is smooth but her driving suck!
haha. but then again, it's okay for first timer. ;)

Drop by OCH. spooky.
Then Send Ms Farah KOK home. (stupid khatib)
As for me, i slept in the car for the whole journey.
uh huh.

This is how we do it.
Enjoyin each day of our lives.

pictok

2008-03-08T03:42:00.005+08:00

Pic-Tok-timeee! :))

So , im a happy goober!

Me and my chickies .

06-03-08

nerdyy

noobiesss

Ogy

who else can this be uh ?
lol
maman

gdbye

4.12am

gone

2008-03-06T12:52:00.003+08:00

& so , we didn't club last night , instead , met up some ulu place at whitchurch rd (after work), at buona vista - colbar & chilling at serangoon till the wee hrs, yes 2am + , with lynn , teresa , our facilitator ; Roy and his mates. & that's about it. cracking some kinky jokes & burn some air pipes.

Now, im off to town with my lovely bitch.
Do some mini shopping or say, do some reading at borders.
the urge.

well girls, im feeling lesb & bitchy back again.
mia, you know it , don't you?
Hah!

bitchy

2008-03-05T01:02:00.004+08:00

One -

The company that i appreciate , lately.

& yes, we bitch-ed & gossip-ed.

shall take some with another workmate bitch of mine!

Two -

& the only thing i feel like saying right at this moment is ;

i need you the most .

Three -

Gonna meet up some babess later.

I miss you people, w15k!

I think we club tonight.

Four -

i'll post some funny pictures soon.

Five -

Goodbye .

all written ; 1:42am.

3rdmarch08

2008-03-03T11:31:00.003+08:00

SPF PAY IS BEING DELAY TILL THE NEXT FCUKIN MONTH!!

Thank God, i gt another job to save my ass for this whole month.

DengDAng! urgg!

Well other than that, im just happy & contented.
& i can't stop smiling. =DDD

Loves-love today. :)
what more can i say?

stay

2008-03-01T12:29:00.001+08:00

Can i just stay & lie with you all day ?